{Monday}

iIt seems like i'm destined to have a lifetime of horrible mondays! i can only rejoice in the fact that unlike morrissey, for me every day is NOT like monday! uck. how horrible!

today i had something huge happen. something i never would have expected. something i hope never happens again to me, or a loved one, in my lifetime. i won't go into gory details because having to think about it hour after hour i just can't bring myself to put it into words. i can only tell you how i'm feeling in the aftermath.

exhausted. useless. inadequate. uncertain. insecure. changed for good. reminded of how important my faith in GOD is in my little world. humbled. scared. determined.

Friends (and family who read this) don't ever forget to tell your loved ones how important they are to you. make time for them. make time for your marriage and try not to take your spouse for granted. know who you can and can't trust, and protect yourself. above all, remember that God has a plan for your life and sometimes it isn't always the cookie cutter life we think its going to be. finally, if life spins out of control God is only a prayer away.

*good night*